February 2012
I just want everything to be perfect sometimes
Perfect life.
Perfect grades.
Perfect body.
And other things…..whatever. Not like anyone cares what I say or how I feel about anything. I’m always in the wrong.
Woah woah woah
When did you become such a raging bitch?
Sssoooo
Why do the girls modeling the swimsuits for Forever21 have perfect bodies?
I'm going on a diet.
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When you want to cry
But you just mother fucking can’t. The tears are ready to go and everything, but you just don’t want to cry. I want to be alone and cry, but I refuse to sit here and bawl my eyes out right now. I think I just got back into the shittiest mood in my entire life. Memories being brought up that I just don’t want to fucking think about right now. Trying to move forward with the past...
Make Me A Song is over!!!
YYYYEEEESSSS!!!!
Woke up with annoying and painful cramps
Have yet to go back to sleep. Le sigh. Wish I was home in my own damn bed in my own damn room in my own damn house. I hate this time of month. I really do. The pain isn’t subsiding long enough for me to go back to sleep. Miiiggghhhtttt just need to take a pill.
I pay attention to people who know good fashion
There is this one girl on campus, and she’s just so adorable. She ALWAYS looks nice. She’s like short, petite, and she has this short black hair do. Every time I see her she looks fabulous. I believe she’s an art major. She’s really into photography I guess because she took pics for this show last week and she’s going to be doing it today. I also kinda sorta creeped...
I just want to have sex.
Too much is going on in these weeks and I’m tired. Going to sleep now.
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I wish
I could be having sex right now. Sex with my delicious sexy girlfriend. ;)
The fucks I could give.....
About this play, and about some of the people running it, are zero. I mean the play is nice and all but some of the women running around here are annoying.
OMFG QUINN!!!
Yes, I am just now watching the episode because I am forced to watch Glee online due to my busy ass college schedule. Judas….I was expecting that though. You never text and drive people. NEVER!
The weather outside is lovely, I’m doing laundry, and I’m going to sit here and eat food and talk to my gf while I’m watching Face Off. As far as I’m concerned, those doing their laundry can just hush up because today I will be removing shit if I need to. I needed to do laundry bitches….so if your shit has been in the dryer for longer than what is...
Have you ever gotten in the shower, turned the water up so it was probably way hotter than necessary, and just stared at the wall for so long that everything slowly gets blurry and you can’t even manage to organize one simple thought in your mind because it seems to be all slowly slipping away?
YYYEEESSS! I did this last night. It was beautiful. I was just so stressed and the water kept...
Out of rehearsal early!!! YES! Going to do this psych homework and then be on my way to bed.
I wish.....
Don’t really know what I could “wish” for. Just me, myself, and I doing things for me. Like during the show my dad sent me a text saying some really nice things. It was really random, but I really appreciated it. I can’t wait to go home and spend time with my parents. I know that they will always love me, be proud of me, and always be my number one supporters.
It sucks...
I never thought I would have to go through this...
Never once did I even entertain the though.
So you dig your own grave, but you expect someone...
Oh sweet Judas….I thought I would never see the day with such fuckery.
My parents are really my everything. They were there for me last night, and I remember my dad saying forget everyone else because you’ll always have us. Honestly the best thing anyone could have told me that I knew was full of conviction. I love my mother and my father. Without them I wouldn’t be anything. Always been there for me, and they always will be.
I wish I was home......
Up doing work....
Class was canceled, and I’m sitting here typing up this journal. About to say fuck it because I burnt myself this morning, and I hardly slept last night. Am I pleased with today so far? Not really. Don’t have anyone to talk to so I might as well go back to sleep.
Fuck you
Seriously.
Why...?
Am I actually sitting here considering medication for anxiety. I’m trying to sleep but my mind is racing and my chest hurts. Feels like my heart is just going to beat its way out. I need help :(. This is too much. I’m seriously laying in bed freaking out.
Just called my mom crying............
This is a first…..
It really does something to me when people tell me how nice or pretty I look when I know I look really shitty. :(. Not the good kind of something either…… *sigh*.
